Week 2 went a little different than week 1…
Spiritually I felt better then I ever have, closer to God and deeper in my faith. I have spent more intentional time in the Word and in prayer and worship than I ever have. It’s transforming my heart and the way I live my life and I couldn’t be more grateful.
As I sat thinking about losing my job and all that has entailed, I truly felt God showing me that I would have never dedicated the time to really invest in this fast, the daily devotional, the fervent prayer, the praise and worship, had I still had my full-time job. He replaced me working for a couple hours in the morning before my son woke up…with time with Him because he knew what was written in those page and what would harbor inside my heart..was much more valuable. That in itself brings me to tears. His peace truly surpasses all understanding. I spend 30 minutes to an hour in the morning with God; in my devotional, the Word and in prayer and reflection and I know that at least half of that time would have been taken away and instead focused on work and my laundry list of to-do’s for the day. Even when we don’t understand it, even when it doesn’t make sense…He is working and it is for the greater good. We have to have faith in that.
Physically I have felt pretty sluggish, foggy and HUNGRY lol always hungry. I am eating a lot of volume, but the problem is, a lot of the food that I am able to eat – fruits and vegetables – are not calorically dense, leaving me still feeling hungry even after a big meal, which is something I am really not used to (ya girl likes to eat!)
But I also take that as a direct sign of exactly how the fast is supposed to go. You are supposed to hunger for the Lord, for his peace, guidance, love and wisdom and I truly want to soak up everything that I can. Words and truth that satisfy my soul.
Mentally I have been on a rollercoaster..one minute feeling confident and content in the direction of the Lord and the next I am consumed by my old way of thinking and needing to control every situation or my overwhelming anxiety will overcome me…yes I know dramatic, but it is the truth.
I have been faced with many convictions during this fast, my need to control, my anxiety, where God is placed in my life, and much more.
My inconveniences and circumstances that have been placed in my life recently have opened an opportunity for me to change my heart, to be more like Jesus and to let God do His job and I have truly never felt more at peace in my life.
Life wasn’t meant to be easy, we were meant to face hardship and difficult circumstances, but we were also given an amazing, perfect, compassionate God that never leaves us, he never gives up on us, he accepts us right where we are, sin, flaws and all and he wants us to rely on him, to confide in him and to look for him for strength, guidance and wisdom.
I am excited for Week 3, to continue to grow in my faith and relationship with the Lord, to finish strong and give Him everything. I have to remember, He can handle it. He can handle my mess, my worry, my baggage…He can and He will.
My favorite devotional and resource for this devotional has been https://www.amazon.com/Ultimate-Guide-Daniel-Fast/dp/031033117X. She provides amazing insight leading up to the Daniel Fast, bible verses for support, daily devotionals and yummy recipes!
I have been falling in love with Kale again…said no one ever lol but really! I just throw a big handful on a hot pan and get it nice and crispy and top it basically on every dish! It adds a nice little crunch! Also I added PUMPKIN to my cookie recipe from last week because Fall..duh! And a super easy, super fresh, super clean slaw dish that I have been loving – recipe below!
- 1/2 bell pepper
- 1/2 can of rinsed chickpeas
- fruit of choice (I did either oranges, pears or strawberries
- fresh diced tomato
- 1/2 avocado
- 1 tbsp hemp seeds
- pine nuts
- olive oil & vinegar
- salt & pepper
Until Next Time on Kelsey’s Chronicles.